When are you the happiest?
When I’m in love. It’s the most accessible answer. Or perhaps I would smile coyly recalling certain moments of amorous frenzy. I might also think about moments when I have successfully completed a task of significant value.
However I may spin it, I have no choice but to observe that my super-happy moments share one common trait. The unpredictable. They come and go, most of the time taking my happiness with them.
Several such disappearances experienced on my own skin have inevitably led me to the following conclusion: The flow of existence is not decided by my expectations. And neither does Life take a detour for my personal whims and illusions.
Still… I do wish to be super-happy. Same as the rest of the world’s population. No matter what nation are they from, or whatever upbringing they have received.
Raise your hand anyone who does not want to always be in the seventh heaven. To simply dream of candy and have it served right up. With the exception of the professional masochists I know no one that would gladly drink up the glass of suffering. The inner well being provides the prettiest smile that life can give. So it’s no wonder it’s so enchanting.
Yet random moments of joy are not a solution of perfect happiness. What could I do then? The scriptures say: do not delude yourself, because surely the universe will find a way to bankrupt your pipe-dreams, promptly dis-illusioning you right back.
A state of awareness is making wonders. Wakes me up. Fades away delusions up to complete dissolution. It’s only that this state does not come by itself. It does take some effort: attention, willpower, and also focus. And that only to be able to remove and throw away all the cliches and limitations with which, by the way, I have myself equipped with. One I will be ever closer to That which I Am, the ineffable perfume of inner Freedom will begin to manifest its presence. On the rhythms of the existence’s waltz. The joy of living will spontaneously blossom in my inner universe, and from there on it will outburst, aligning my consciousness with a different and wonderful way of enjoying life.
And the nuances of happiness that I have mentioned in the beginning? They have of course their purpose. Without them I would have never known where to start. I would have not had any kind of signpost. They are however only milestones towards the place where I will take off into TRUE HAPPINESS.
Hermina
